Birthdays

My baby sister turned 18 last friday.

Crazy fun depressing times.

She hired a bus to take a tonne of girls to different pubs before we stopped for clubbing bringing random guys along for the ride. Much fun and frivolties followed. Had an awesome time with my bestie Erin until about 1am when I had the stupidity to put down my bag. Stupid drunken me. Of course someone stole it. iPhone(which I'd had for approx. 2 weeks, ID, bank card, camera I got for christmas. I was crushed. Still am. But my darling sister put everything on hold and helped me look for it, asked the bar staff etc until she turned to me and said, 'Shannyrie, it's only material things, it doesnt matter.' Made me feel a whole lot better and I'm glad to have such an awesome sister. She has so many friends and the reason is she is a beautiful person, who never judges and will talk to anyone.

But the stupid bitch got her license before me.

Love you Cal. Happy 18th.
x

Dreaming

I know i shouldn't want you
It was supposed to be a fling
But I know you dream too
About all and everthing

I dream.
I hope, I pray
I fantasize
I crave.

I know I shouldn't. It must be wrong.
But if it is
Why do you egg me on?

Why do you say,
We can be together one day
Surely that means
Its not all just a disallusion

Its nice when your whole world
Can fit inside your arms
But not if that person
Is a world away

Love not unrequited,
But lacking timing.

Maybe in a different world
A different space
A different time

It could be real

Idiots...

Ugh. Train rides. 3 hour long train rides. And the idiots you have to put up with while on them. Teenagers behaving like 6yr olds annoying people on the train just to see if someone will notice them. I find it quite sad. They play loud obnoxious music on their phones, hoping someone will tell them off. Demanding attention. One of them had a lazer pen and was randomly aiming it at different people. The majority of the train ignored these people as we all knew that if we said anything we'd be giving them what they wanted. Eventually a woman got so annoyed she told them off and of course this did little to stop the situation. People like these 17 yr old guys make me sick and ashamed to be a part of the generation. No wonder older people see no hope in us.

Saturday Night

So its Saturday night and I have nothing to do. So my boyfriend is making me create a World of warcraft account and play with him. Sad. Depressing. Ridiculous that a 19 year old girl is sitting at home playing this game on her computer on a Saturday night. Its part lets-keep-Tom-happy part dying-of-boredom-lets-give-something-new-a-go. And i'm never one to turn down trying something new.

Sums up 2009 pretty well

I remember the end of school
Felt like the start of something bigger
Bigger than the sky at night in your big backyard
When your parents were gone and we were drinking a cask
Getting bent in Lake Annand park
Making out when the streets got darker
After midnight we'd follow the road
Walk all night just to see where it goes
Yeah, you could say that we were stupid then
That we didn't know anything
But we knew all we had to know
Yeah, cause we knew that we were friends
And that that was everything
And there were no tomorrows
Just the end of school

Your not mine, your not mine

These things I know.

• My friends are my family. And right at this moment they consist of a few people. Namely, Tom, my boyfriend of six months, Erin my friends since....well we knew each other in kinder... and Sarah my supervisor at work.
• The world is better then it seems. Sure a lot of crazy stuff has happened, but look closer, people are doing amazing things everyday. I have great faith in humanity.
• I love my job. And am very lucky to work with such hard working people, caring for children. I hope I stick at this and be half as good as they are.
• My actual biological family is a disaster. But there are glimmers of home everyday. Take today for instance I actually had fun at timezone with my baby brother and mum. Gob-smackingly amazing.
• Love is the only reality :P